What a year!

I ended my 2007 by travelling to Ipoh. 2007 was such a hectic year for me. I learn many things, one of them is, i could not cope with 5 subjects in one semester. My results are ok but I need more time and space to enjoy my learning process.

Went up to Bota and Lumut, heck we lost our way! It was such a comfort driving MYV until i didn't mind the long drive up to pantai remis and batu hampar. Hahaha i was scared honestly but alhamdulillah i managed to find my way to parit. It was good to lost my way actually, because my family got to see new places and driving was a great pleasure in the middle of the plantations. Well at least my family got to travel that far and my mother was extremely happy to see her siblings. It was great. After nursing muhamad after his berkhatan, me and my mother need a break. My girl too need a break after her upsr. I need a break after my testing semester. We saw the sea, how very soothing to see God's creation, enjoyed by humans, under the scorching sun. I will make this a yearly event, my family deserves a good rest before the new year comes!

Sigh.. I felt cheated!

Cheated by the school fees. Now I know that the "free school fees" are only RM4.50 and RM9.00. How pathetic! Sigh sigh sigh.. I had to fork out the kids saving to cover the costs of books and daily pocket money. What else is new and what else is left? How do I get to be a wealthy lady? What would be the expenses of the university my kids enter to in future! When do I get to perform my Hajj?
Now, cooking oil and wheat flour are not in the market. Went to OTK twice to buy more cooking oil but none is available. I know this is the election cue. After the election, everything would experience price hike, sure start will be the petrol. And the President did not announce any bonuses for this year. So why must I occupy myself with the appraisal form? I am poorer and poorer by the day!

Ramadhan..

I was sobbing the night of 1st ramadhan. I promised to make doa to all my good friends, rabbana atina fiddunia hasanah, wafilakhiratihasanah, waqiazabannar. God make me a better slave, make me alert of world down under, make me a better human, a better mom and a better daughter. Love us all ya Allah. Ramadhan.. i will always miss the excitements you bring..

At the dinner table…..

Vegetables are having a heated discussion. They wanted to take revenge on the farmers who had been spoiling them with dangerous chemicals. A group of spinach was killed last week after being drenched in a yellowish fertilizer for several hours. Jungle ferns were taken away from the supermarket after found rotten by a customers. Young bamboo shoots which used to have the sweetest taste, could no longer proud of it as the chemicals have overpower the original taste.

Initially, Malaysian vegetables had a serious problem with pesticide residues. Up to 75% of the vegetables sent to the wet market were rejected regularly. What will happen to their next generation? Yesterday, tomatoes were seen injected with folate to enhance pregnancy planning. Soya beans are not safe to be consumed any more, because it contains too much of herbicides.

“What do we do now chief?” asked the crowd. We could not bear this any longer; humans are choking us. Leafy vegetables are leading the discussion group. They have now decided to stop growing no matter what fertilizer farmers use to elevate growth.
Now, at the dinner table, thousand of vegetables and herbs are meditating, making crunchy sounds, asking inner strength from God. They were united and sturdy. Then, they built a banner with writes: SAVE US, STOP THE CHEMICALS, SAVE OUR GENES, TAKE US FRESH! AGAINST GENETIC ENGINEERING. They prayed hard and chimed: GOD SAVE US!

Soon, the results shows. To their surprise, countless lorries came to the farm with more genetically engineered vegetables. Beans sprouts, olives, zucchinis, crops… all in gigantic looks. May be they didn’t meditate hard enough. Or perhaps God refused to listen. Who will rescue their youngsters? Humans are selfish creatures. They only mean business. Who would take charge of the social responsibility?

Humans are carcinogens now. They couldn’t care less what they swallow. The vegetables are too delicate to combat human behaviours. They left the dinner table with a big sigh..

My first piece of creative writing. Some people were clapping after i read it in class. My lecturer said it was good. Thank God, I put so much effort writing it. Couldn't imagine I would be able to write like that. Happy and motivated. Now, on to my journal writing.

Why do you want to be Wannabe?

Dear Wannabe, he is Shakespeare and he is about literature, not a linguist okay!

I first heard of the Wannabe when eating out with Latep. What is wannabe? Oh,
-One who imitates the behavior, customs, or dress of an admired person-. Yes, I think I met many wannabes but don't know the label. Unluckily this one wannabe is near to me. She claimes she read novels by famous authors. She bought all the series of this lady author. I believe her, after all, why would one want to claim something that she does not do?

Then comes the hit. If she really read, why can't she write a simple line? I was confused. Then came by wonderful lecturer's advice- she said the only way to improve your English is by reading. Read what ever you like and you will improve gradually.

Ahah! If she reads, she would not be asking for help to check on her grammar. Oh wannabe, how sad of you. That is why, I must keep this reading habit.

Read on gal!

What lies beneath thee

What lies beneath thee

the mysterious religious

brought me high and low

take me with you

take my life

let me be drunk

before i sleep..

Dead Sea Sunset Waves

How I long to live in a house like this..

My white Kancil 850 is 6 years old. Should I get a new one? I am fond of Proton Savvy but I so could not afford other than Kancil. When thinking about this I still punish myself for being naive a.k.a damn stupid for marrying him. He got my life screwed up and now I have to do everything on my own. I do enjoy my unlimited space and freedom. But sometimes there comes the natural call and I need a shoulder to cry on. Imagine myself in the flaming red Savvy, how so comfy.

I better save more money to rent a better house for my family. I don't need a new car. The kancil will do us fine. A better roof on our head is what we needed most. I want to spend the rest of my life in a house like this. How peaceful. How sincere..